Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas Morning Merry Christmas from 1950's Atomic Ranch House!



NOT my photo, but what fun on Christmas morning!

I remember as a kid being so excited about Christmas morning. The thrill of seeing that yes, Santa had indeed come, despite my brothers and their bad behavior.

Missing my family a bit again this year... It's got to get easier, right?

And I am discovering that while it's never the same without the ones you love, after enough time, you aren't quite as sad. The pain eases just a bit, I suspect it will ease a bit more in time. You make a sort of new "normal" on these days, and for me, working all the time helps.


I will pack away the tinsel tree, and Santas and such, and bring out the big champagne glass Mom got as a decoration. I'll take photos of that, it's really a wonderful New Year display. And while this was the first year I bothered to decorate since the family is gone, it didn't quite make me feel full of joy... But I was glad I did it anyways.


Merry Christmas to you and yours. And for those who are missing loved one's this season, know you are not alone, and my heart goes out to you.
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20 comments:

  1. I always miss my mom this time of year. She really was the heart of our holiday celebrations. Here I am , half a world away from my daughter and her little family. My step-dad spends this day with his girlfriend and her family. My brother has a huge brood in Missouri and we talk very rarely. I have a sister in Colorado that I am not very close to and another in Texas that I barely know, or that I want to know. I did speak to my other sister this morning.

    Seems we are scattered to the ends of the earth these days and that makes me sad.

    I will say this tho...the memories of my childhood and the crazy whacky Christmases we had will live on inside of me and i will continue to share them with my kiddos. You just cannot make that sort of stuff up!

    Blessings to you this day and all others.

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  2. Mom was the heart of every holiday here, too. That's why decorating and 'celebrating" if you can call it that, seem so... Hollow... Still. I hope it changes.

    Things were far from perfect when my family was alive, but I still miss having them here.

    But I am glad the 'evil one' isn't here. That alone makes it a better time for me.

    Happy holidays, we have to make the best of what we have, so if you have wonderful memories, hang on to those!

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  3. Don't make me cry at 3am in the morning. I hope time makes things better for you.

    What a heartfelt post ... I might call my parents again in the morning and thank them again for all they've done for me.

    Loneliness can be the worst feeling ... so hugs and more hugs to those people who are feeling a bit alone this Christmas.

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  4. Yes, let them know how much you love them as often as possible.

    I always told Mom I loved her, so glad I did that!

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  5. Wow, you kinda described how my holidays are now...kind of a let down. I think that's because we are adults. When you're a kid, you don't put the energy into buying gifts...you're just on the receiving end. So when it's all over in a flash, well, who cares? But once you know what goes into it...you want more feeling.

    I miss my brother and my dad every day. I spent last night grinning and bearing my other brother. He, his wife and I probably spoke six words. Nice thing though, my niece and nephew and I had a rollicking good time.

    If it weren't for Clynt, however, we would have had no laughs at all. You'll know what I mean when I post on my blog tomorrow...

    Anyway, you can only be lonely if you allow yourself time to be. Get out, volunteer, visit friends...it truly does help.

    Merry Christmas my friend!

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  6. I could no longer grin and bear my surviving sibling being here every Christmas. No more. It's just too much.

    And I do remember a let down, even when the family was here. But gee, at least they were here to feel let down 'with' lol.

    Glad you had some good time of it, Barbara, sincerely.


    I'm not "lonely" so much as missing the people who really loved me. My friends check up on me, wish me a Merry Christmas, but it's not the same. I do like being independent, but... Friends are not family, that's for sure lol...

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  7. Wow, this post was just a little bit longer than the comment you left on my blog yesterday! You have become one of my very very very favorite blog buddies over the year, mainly due to your willingness to share your deepest thoughts and the fact that you really do wear your heart on your sleeve. I like people like that. They remind me of ME!!! So hugs and smooches to you, my friend, on this most miraculous of all days! No, it's not miraculous because it's Christmas--it's miraculous because my husband just finished vacuuming all the dog hair off the bedroom carpet! OH MY GOD, THERE REALLY IS A SANTY CLAUS!!!!!!

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  8. Merry Christmas, and the very best in the new year.

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  9. Hahaha Christine!

    It's risky stuff putting your stuff out there lol, but c'mon, Did anyone really want another post about how much I love my vintage pink Lux timer?? Zzzzzzzz lol....


    Merry Christmas Carole, damn, this will all be over soon!!!

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  10. And we thought we were all alone with these doubts about Christmas! Gues not.
    Jim

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  11. Oohhh Ranchie!! I feel for you, I really do. I had a lot of christmasses by myself in Sydney, and it was horrible. I had severe depression and agoraphobia, brought on by abuse I suffered as a young'un, and voluntarily cut off my family for a few years. So for a few years I'd be alone at Xmas, sitting at home, no decorations, no presents, nothing, and it was AWFUL. Now I've largely resolved issues with my family and my father (perp) is out of the picture, I'm back near my family and I have a child of my own and good support systems in place, so hopefully that kind of thing won't happen again. But I always get the 'let-down' feeling that you mentioned-its just not the same as when one was a child, and although we all try to make Xmas as fun as possible, we'll never be able to bring that time back. Our Xmas day was cut short yesterday anyway, we all went to my sisters house mid-morning, she'd had a terrible night with her ill 3 month old baby plus had had my 'lovely' father turn up at 6am Xmas morning and give her hell so we pretty much did the presents, had a quick lunch and were home by 1.30, oh well. I'm very thankful that I have VB, without her yesterday afternoon I'd have been quite sad. And I'm back to work today too, can't paint furniture as it is STILL raining, but am trying to tell myself how FUN it is to wash, scrub, pack and price some of the small stuff thats going to the shop. You're welcome to pop in and help anytime Ranchie. I could do with the company too.xx.

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  15. awwww Kitty, so sorry to hear about the difficulties!!

    I would think, having a little one would help, because now you make things magic for them. Even if you don't feel the same magic, you experience it through the wee one.

    But thankfully, these days pass, and we move on, and tomorrow I will be glad, this one is obver with lol...

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  16. I think once we get it out there and say it, the sting is a little less. My best friend called me today and we both admitted we get a little depressed after Christmas. We talked about expectations and those who aren't around anymore, and yes, it hurts. Glad I can get online and see all the happy pictures of vintage things and read about how others are human too, and can talk about it honestly. Zootsuitmama

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  17. I also loved having a pony. And I had one in wood instead but it was worth it. I was feeling very happy before Christmas and even during it.. until it was around ten pm when suddenly I felt sad and can´t say why exactly. But probably the missing ones, the people I cherish, my grandparents.. and perhaps as well the tired day before Christmas in town, trying to avoid being bumped by hurried people, my tired feet, but still to me Christmas is a child´s gift

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  18. My mom has been gone since 1997...my dad and grandmothers since 1986...my grandfathers since the 1960s. I doubt that you ever stop missing loved ones, but it does get easier as time goes on. I really enjoyed posting about my childhood Christmases this year. It made me feel closer to all of them somehow.

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  19. It gets easier, but it never goes away. NEW holiday "normal" does help. Incorporating new things with your old traditions seems to work best. Making new memories, and keeping touch with the old.

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  20. Thanks all for the comments... I edited most of my post because... It was so personal and too depressing lol...

    Have not heard a peep from this sibling. Gee, had I known a simple fight would get him out of my life, I would have done this a long time ago ha ha ha

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